"With the cold air breathe in and breathe out"

With the cold air breathe in and breathe out
My heart still longing for one and one only
In the business of bees I travel deep into the honey hole
Among the jungle sound I hear only hush

The quietness of all takes me into the eccentric of sentiment
The one hadn’t felt for long, haven’t taste in years
While in crowd, there’s one face picturesque
While in noise, only one voice I can hear and indulge

How long must I suffer? Must I wait for the certainty?
Is it me who alone obsessing?
Or it is just NOT meant to be?
Oh, why these questions must haunt me?

Please heart does not wait,
Please mind, don’t assume too much
Please feet, just keep on walking
For love doesn’t stop and look back.

Miss Misery si Diana Jones

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Miss Misery si Diana Jones

Detik mula kumenikam matamuia semalam
dan kilaunya hatimu membenderangisemangat jaya ini
kala kita sedang berurusan untuk jadi pemerintah
dan bila tiba
kau sapa hati ini
harus aku lentuk ngalah
dibuai kesrikandianmu
menggengam kalbuku
jadi goncang dunia
pacar-pacaran bunga
memancar-mancar sukma
penuh harapan penuh ingin dada
mencurah-curah air mawar manja
membasahai badiku lemah jiwasi gadis misteri
si gadis miseri
lalu biar aku teruskan
mengejar pelangi senja
tiada tujuh warna
semuanya biru belaka
ingin kupetik pelangi
buat kuntuman hati
di dalam ragamu sayang
kerna aku benar-benar ingin
bertakhta di hatimu
walau hiba tak sempat
dan takdir menggugat
akhirnya dapat jua aku luahkan
sebutir perasaan yang pernah terpendam
kini aku riang
mengkhabarkan kepadamu gegar jiwa yang pernah aku rasakan
lima tahun dahulusatu harapan berangsang
agar ini persahabatanakan harus berkekalan
sehingga takdir menentukan

Di hari perkahwinanmu

Akan kau lalui gerbang indah nanti
Di sana akan kau bertemu
Sang putera idaman
Dilahirkan untukmu
Membelai jiwamu manja
Memanja hatimu skuma
Mengusap rambutmu mayang
Dia akan mendakapimu
Penuh makna
Erat seerat kasih
Erat Seerat sayang
Menginggalkan rindu
Mengulam dendam bermadu
Lalu kembanglah bunga cinta
Jadi indah maya pada
Seri semuanya
Wangi segalanya
Kasih kau ramas mesralah
Diriku dalam satumu
Kitalah intan dan permata
Kepada ayah-ayah dan bunda-bunda kita
Enaknya perkahwinan
Seterusnya enaknya bila punya anak
Dan enak itu adalah pertanggungjawaban
Tahniah buat adikku manja
Kuntum bungamu akan mekar
Di jambangan hati suami
Dialah lelakimu
Di kala hidup dan di waktu matimu
Tahniah

Bisikan Asmara

Bukan aku sengaja pinta
Tapi gadis sering manja
Melengan atas bahuku
Benar ia kasih, tiada aku tahu

Sering diucap kata sayang
Sering juga hanya dimulut manisan
Sekadar penyeri bunga-bunga taman

Wajarkah segala ketaktentuan
Meronta jiwa kehausan

Cari diri
Bongkar erti

Mahligai indah dibina atas nama sayang
Belaian diusap makin jadi sayang
Ke tandus-tandusnya cinta
Ke lara-laranya jiwa ronta.

Sering tertipu dan ditipu
Hati terusik kalbu
Jika benar, benarlah
Jika tiada, tiadalah

Biarkan kosong jadi keputusan
Kegelapan biar jadi nisan
Namun berhenti usah jangan
Kita mesti teruskan perjalanan.

Sepetang Angin Barat

Alangkah indahnya bila cinta
Menutur seribu maksud cinta
Membelai selayang pandang cinta
Di gugusan cinta lara

Waktu aku sentuh hatinya
Hatinya menggulai lauk pilu
Dia merengek padaku
Lalu kukatakan padanya
Santan masih likat
Garam masih ada
Ayuh kita campuri enak rasa
Kita nikmati bersama.

Dan angin petang menari
Kala sendu kita berlari
Kita tolak keresahan
Jauh ke sudut ignoran
Bedek fail-fail cinta lama
Oh! Masih ada
Kisah-kisah tersisa

Mentari Barat

Di waktu gerimis petang
Lembayung memanggil pulang
Anak-anak kecil
Dari dirasuki setan
Menitis di atas kepalaku
Aku jadi pening bingit
Sakit

Gunung hijau jadi temanku bicara
Gerimis mengulit lagu tip tap
Ayahbunda nun di sana
Pintaku ingat pesan-pesan Asar
Bila darah kita jadi satu
Kita pasti ketemu kembali
Dan bersatu dalam nadi
Intai cahaya

Mentari kau hanya cahaya lembayung
Di kiri dan kananku
Senyumlah di kebaratan
Kita kenang masa silam
Kita pun pantas tahu
Terus berakraban
Di pintu mahu

kala sifar mengontang jiwa

kala sifar mengontang jiwa
aku duduk terdampar
menghitung hari-hari manis
lalu turun hujan madu
kelat dan manismenitik di pipiku
lalu lidahku menjelir dan menjilat manis dipipi
seraya.... tiba-tiba aja
gugur jantungku
gementar jiwaku
aku kaget kaku
guruhpun menyanyikan lagu
indah bak cinta murniaku masih duduk menyandar dinding
kakiku melunjurlalu kubengkokkan kaki
kutapak bumi ini kejap-kejaptanganku di atas lututku
kepalaku tundukaku merenung tanah
kulihat seekor semut
membisikkan padakuhai gadis manis
usah lagi nangisangkat mukamu bukalah matamu
kulihat segugus bunga-bunga
bermacam-macam warna
digengam erat sang teruna
dia melutut sebelah kaki
dengan gagah gayadia senyum padaku
aku lihat anak matanya
dalam-dalam kulihat
dia lihat mata hitamku
sepekat gelap dia memikat
hatiku luluh
kuhanya rasakan roh aja
jasadku menyatu entah ke mana
kulihat dia juga adalah roh
jasadnya menyatu jasadku
benar inikah Cinta
Duhai Tuhan Sang Pengasih
Ini bumi Bandung
Darah perwira yang pernah tumpah
dan aku masih lagi erat rapat dengan ini tanah
Bunga-bunga Bandung
berkelopak dan menari
riang meriangi harisiang mensiangi diri
jelma Cinta lagi
jelas kutak bersalah
kerna ini Cinta inilah misteri
dan inilah miseri
Bunga-bunga Bandung
masih berseri warni
aku sambut genggam lelaki
benar dikaulah yang kucari
telus dan tiada sangsi!

"While silence guarantee peace"

While silence guarantee peace
It often agonizing
As it prolongs glumness
It certainly worries a lonely heart
When do lonesome reign over me?
And the pain is endlessly excruciating
Convince the damsel it all will be allright
Or it will be over in fortnight.

"…suffer equally as mine."

The meeting was all to smile about
The cold air calm both souls
The bluest sky at its brightest
The crowd scatters giving out spaces
I grin with the happiest grin
My heart beats fast like a drum
Wanted to run and hug the bear
And caress like one never been loved

Hearts never stopped beating fast ever since
Mind keeps going to the same place
Emotions plying high to one direction
Love the only feeling been thinking of
Hand trembled for every movement
Legs seems to want to go to only same direction
Wondering if the other half,
…suffer equally as mine.

The state I am now is...

The state I am now is...

Happy.
Calm,
but sad.
Not depress!
Bit vulnerable,
and deep with emotions.
Been trying...
to hold back
needs.
Ends up,
sting a bit...
but hurt like hell.

When you go Don't ever think
I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing
I don't know So take your gloves and get out
Better get out, While you canWhen you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up While you can
When you go Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"
Well come on, come onWhen you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday"
I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday
I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday

I might just find the one
One that might fits just nice
Nice to see and hopefully to hold
Hold in my arms and I won’t let go
Go exactly to the intended end
End of once seems never come true
True to heart and sight
Sight for sore eyes that lasts
Lasts for lifetime
Lifetime on earth before I die
Die and sleep peacefully

Peace indeed…
Is what I really need

"build up another fury"

within a cramped breathing space
glancing over a crowd of the dazed
the confused of corporate victim
fitting hard to blend in
armed with limited weapon of destruction
later drowns the wit among the vangeance
build up another fury
slowly kept in fragile body
wonder what rage could cause
when triggered by unwanted force.

"lurking"

Lurking in my own shadow
Waits for the time to react
To the cruelty of sarcasm and the ruthless
The torture is stretched
The game is mind blowing
Aren’t that a way
To ease the pain away…

"Reminiscing"

Reminiscing the unlikely dreams
Funny how none made it’s way to reality
From the most ridiculous
To the unbelievably could have been.
Nothing makes any sense
Not one alleviate the pain
Still here I am standing still
Wait for point of no return
For money to grow on trees
And yet what done is stupid
Me sabotaging the possibilities
Afraid to lose on small scales
Ended up losing on mounting debts
It is cruel to see me falling
So deep in my own lonely cell
Help me seek certainty
Among the ruins and the victory

"just another friendly acts?"

It’s been a while
It’s finally came
Do I want this?
Do I need it anyway?
What if possibly true
Total stranger a potential?
Hard to explain
With a straight face
And a regular beating of Heart
Was it just another friendly acts?

"Harness your emotions for satisfaction"

Harness your emotions for satisfaction
Work out the strength that overcoming
The fear within, the influence surrounds
For it stays and keep impinge on us

Beat the obstacles, ruin the enemy
Stand up tall and cherish the victory
Should you fall and lose gracefully
Keep the faith for it facilitate

Said it and work it
Instead I squirm on the failure
And giggle when others wronged
Should have changed, should be distinctive
To accept and not abandoned
The unwritten, the what will be.

"a pity"

It's a pity
Life has been a burden
when it should be celebrated
Direction has changed
by wind of monsoon season

When talk not walked
becomes a tumor in innocent mind
Deep buried in ground zero
piled on by dirt of cruelty

Where have compassion vanished
helpless becomes weaker
the strong just running away
No more salvation is seek
as aid just scarce further

Till death calling
Out of this stillness
I am here.. watches
as the earth faded away

"of life and death"

How do I deal
with clingers and liars
keep hanging on the forbidden tree
How do I run
from heartbreakers and lovers
who loved, then ruin
How do I fight
tears and fears
of life and death

"deep in solitude"

I know a figure
who listens not talk
who smile for approval
and frown for disagreeing
deep in solitude
she just drifted away...